I’ve been contemplating about a few things for the past week, and I’ve come to
realize that I’m not as good a writer as I thought myself to be. It’s not that
I’m fishing for compliments or what, but I’ve been having this feeling of
inadequacy for years now. I’ve read other people’s writings and frankly
speaking, they’re far off better in writing than I am, although ironically, I’m
in this line of work.
Aside from my earlier post about wanting to become a full-fledged travel writer, I’ve been meaning to become a fictionist as well. Of course no one can just simply “become” a fictionist with a mere snap of the fingers, but I’ve been so frustrated with myself on why I cannot seem to produce something decent to be even considered as such. Blame it on the fact that I’ve always wanted to write a novel but couldn’t.
I don’t think my being a chronic slacker is the reason why I can’t finish a story. Usually, I already have a beginning, a bit of the middle, and the end part of a story, but the nitty gritty detail of actually piecing the whole puzzle together is what’s bogging me down. Try as I might to slave away, in NaNoWriMo for example, I can already foresee that I won’t make the 50,000 word count requirement because of a matter of details.
What’s really irritating me more is that a new story plot’s been swimming in my head since last week…it’s driving me crazy! I’ve suddenly developed this insane idea of hanging out in the mall to observe people. It’s like my brain’s seducing me to write it all down, but I wouldn’t want to start on a crazy project knowing that I’ve only got a beginning and a few smatterings of details to work on. That’s it. I don’t even know how I’m going to develop the characters without sounding too cliché-ish.
I really am sorely tempted to begin to write, but I’m scared of disappointment (and frustration) if I end up not finishing this other story yet again.
I have completely ruined my perfect attendance for the month of May when I went home almost two hours ahead of my official call time. I've been feeling whoozy since yesterday, after inevitably catching the virus going around the office. I took precautions, drinking anti-flu medicine after every four hours, but to no avail. I went to work this morning, still feeling under the weather. I thought I could breeze through the day without anything complicated happening, that was, until I felt colder than the usual and my head grew heavy.
I was officially sick by 10AM. Great.
Nevertheless, I was able to finish the more urgent stuff I needed to do at work, logged off at 4:10PM and went home. I was lucky my brother was within the vicinity of Makati so we went home after grabbing a quick bite at McDonald's.
I did miss the after-work dinner meet with officemates though, if ever that pushed through. I'd have loved to hang around with friends at work, but alas, this blasted virus got the better of me. I still feel kinda sick, though not that serious unlike this morning. I hope to feel a bit better tomorrow so I can head off to TriNoma this weekend.
Speaking of which, has anyone seen that new Ayala mall right across SM North EDSA? I hope to drop by an take a peek; I heard the interiors looked really spiffy. Well, that's Ayala malls for you.
Have a great weekend, people! ^_~
I don't have an advanced pass to the Pre-OBT, so I'm just gonna bide my time till tomorrow to log into the game, that is, if I can get my hands on the client to install it here in my PC. Sigh. Lucky advanced pass holders. T_T
I just might put up a separate VOX blog for all my GE entries. It might be cumbersome for me to maintain yet another blog, but I'll try to chronicle my travails in the New World in a different blog once I'm able to log in the family name I want (hopefully no one has thought up of that name to actually beat me to it). I'm pretty much excited to get started on this new project so I hope I can get to play real soon.
Hope you guys can try playing the game as well. It's hard to babble about something few people know of. Hehehe.
Till here for now. Ja!
Just a few more winks, and it'll be Pre-OBT!!! I've never been this excited about a game. I'm sure other fans of Granado Espada are also waiting with bated breaths upon the arrival of May 17.
Lately, I've been hooked with the music of GE since its Closed Beta test. It's a mix of classical, trance, techno and pop. Depending on where you are in the game, there's a particular background music, which I think, totally suits the particular area.
One of the brilliant musicians behind GE is Kim Junsung and soundTeMP. I particularly love this track, Nangman Trance, because it keeps me awake here in the office. The opening beat already gets me perked up and the techno twist is like an engaging dance track.
I'm still looking for a particular favorite bgm, Aria de Coimbra, which is actually a classical track with opera vocals. Hopefully I can scour the Net for that and post it here for everyone to sample as well.
Let me know what you think of this music. ;-) See you all in Granado Espada!
Changed my layout once again! It's nothing fancy though...I just cropped an image and changed the color scheme. This time around, I've got a lovely Granado Espada header in my blog and I'm loving it! I'm a certified GEek and proud. Hehehe.
Can't wait for Pre-OBT!!! May 17, here we come!
Book: Show us one of your favorite works of fiction.
Incidentally, these weren't the first books of Eddings that I first read. I came across Sir Sparhawk in the Elenium series in the college library and back then I was looking for something new to read than the usual stuff (which basically comprised of romance novels..hehe). Surprisingly, I took to the book quite well and before long, I came across the Belgariad. But I like this series more than the Elenium. Sparhawk's character is a bit too stiff for me XD.
Now I find it hard to read another fantasy work that's not Eddings. I find his style very reader-friendly compared to LOTR and WOT. Which is why I try to introduce his books to my friends...and like me, they grew to love Eddings as well.
Show us a photo of someone else taking a photo.
Submitted by ydnar.
Took this one from my last trip to Negros Occidental, specifically in Sipalay. This was probably one of the best assignments I had (next to Palawan) and I absolutely adored the beach. It's quiet, unperturbed and relaxing. I've never been so at peace with myself (aside from Palawan XD).
Btw, the guy in the photo was our magazine photographer. I liked the texture of the sand so I took part of it in the photo as well.
What's the first image that comes up when you Google your name?
If you click the pic to your left, you'd see that the first image that comes up when I Google my name is Pia Guanio. That's because I interviewed her years before in my stint as a writer for BusinessWorld Online.
Note the italicized words. Hehe. That's because when I interviewed her she was still a Kapamilya and had a "decent" love life. Not that I give a damn on her social life, but man, with her getting googoo gaagaa over Vic Sotto is really a disturbing mental image.
Anyway, enough about the chika. XD
Looking at the other pictures in Google, you'd notice that these were all images from the stories I wrote for BWorld Online.
Sigh. Those were the days.
I am officially insane.
I am currently in love with this Mini Fee ShuShu doll from LUTS. In fact, I already have a name for her—Tala Verdandi—after the Tagalog term "star" and Supreme Destiny's (online game) server.
Tala costs a whopping $355 without the wig and dress.
Just by doing the math, it's quite easy to say that this doll doesn't come cheap. But I am absolutely smitten and I really want to have this doll as in badly! Perhaps bad enough to make me lay off cosplaying for a while (after I finish the Enca Amihan gown version that I've been planning for eons) just to save up to buy her.
Honestly though, it's the money issue that's been bugging my conscience lately. If ever I did get around to buy her, I don't think I'll sleep soundly knowing that I spent that much moolah in one go. I can probably hear Satan himself stoking the fire for which to burn my soul with.
But still, if there's an opportunity for me to earn dollars, I'd grab it in a heartbeat. I just hate the fact that our currency's so freaking far off from the almighty dollar. Even if the peso has gained strength, earning 355 bucks is no walk in the park.
I need the mother of all miracles to grant this impossible wish though.
Hahahaha! None other than the family dog, Carding!
And he's giving himself a blowjob...FTW!!!! XDDDDD
Seriously though, since he's grown, I've often seen him licking his weaner (pardon the french XD). And now he's even more frisky than ever. He seriously needs to get laid. The poor dog's been humping on legs for the last few days, fer cryin' out loud! No kidding! I tried sticking my leg out once, then he just grabbed it and started humping! Just this morning he did that to my brother's leg too...it was pitiful and hilarious at the same time. I feel bad for him coz it's affecting his appetite (not to mention that it's really disturbing to see your dog humping your leg). Mmmm said something about having the dog neutered, but I don't even know what that is. Hopefully, we'd have Carding go through with the procedure so he'd be his usual self again.
Well, there's nothing wrong with him, save for his diminishing appetite. It's been getting hard to feed him these days, so sometimes we'd just let him starve so when we serve his next meal, he'd gobble it down with a flourish. Hehehe. We're cruel, I know, but we don't want the food going to waste.
The thing I like about our dog is his natural playfulness. He loves being petted and played with (okay, that sounded off). When we let him outside to play, he runs and skips like a deer. He loves hanging around the girl dogs too. Hehe.
We don't lock him in his cage anymore primarily because he looks cramped when he's inside. He loves laying/sleeping near the door, specially when he gets scared with those late night paputok exploding out of nowhere. He's just adorable.
We have to get him neutered fast, otherwise we'll have one horny dog in our hands. XDDDDD
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